At Seventeen

I was still floating inside the concert hall till now...
The At 17 concert last night was great, anymore went there too?
GOOD SHOW!

山水

這一天終於體力不支了，於課堂裡差點暈倒了，可能這幾天只吃粥，麥片等東西不夠支撐我的身體，吃過午飯可好了點。
中國人繪畫講求意境，病的意境究竟是如何表達呢，頭有點暈，還是盡快趕回夢的意境吧。

終於打敗仗了

原來只有大病一次才能換來一天的假期，這一天，肚子裡所有的壞蛋均一次過被我吐了出來。面無血色，眼腫腫的我最終也見了醫生，他說長期睡眠不足容易生病，其實我又不是不想睡，能夠睡，我也想長眠一段時間。吃過藥，眼前的所有東西是…

Everything become so blur...

This is a cold dark morning, I cannot pull myself up from the bed...I guess not only me,, people who need to wake up before 6am might have the same feeling as mine. When I opened my eyes, I told myself it was still the middle of the night, hey , sleep back,but I know it's not true. Back to the realiy, I still pull myself up from the warm bed and push my half dead body to the bathroom.

Coolest Icon

Recently got some presentations about visual icons. I was drown into the research on those images about Mao......got a bit crazy about his face and images about him...... yesterday bought a small book in HMV called "The Thoughts of Chairman MIAOW", it was so funny that the author tried to replace the head of Mao into MIAOW from the chinese paintings. I guess if Mao saw those images, he will jump up from his coffin :)
Bought a new CD in HMV, NANA, I guess she is the coolest visual icon in current days. I guess her image looked great in NANA then her old CDs.

Ugly me

These few days, under great pressure and stress + sickness when working, cannot get quality sleep at night, cannot communicate well with people, I was like evaporating in the real world. My face was terrible these days,,,,, red, ichy,,,,,,, ugly ,,,,,,,,,, made me lost my confident....... hey,,,, the harsh time, please leave me alone as soon as possible.

sick = dead

Hate being sick,, hate the feeling of "losing concentration" on my work ...... hate getting stuck. hate losing my clear mind to think and to analysis........... please please please ,, leave me alone,, dear sick sick devil! I was leaving in hell just like dead for 2 days,, headache keep tracing me and the weather is getting cold and I was hiding in a dark corner waiting for the sunrise. How are you? Are you still living healthly and happily? I guess I got to close my eyes and enter hide myself into the cold dark night again........

Back to my routine

Got some new challenges this week.... sometimes good to have some changes when working for routine everyday and night. Monday is coming, 7 hours later, I will get back to my routine again. These few weeks, different friends and people were asking me the same questions:" do you think you like your job? do you think you are suitable for the job? do you like your job?...." Till this moment, I still think I am suitable.......... I duno what will happen in the next second,....anyways....
another sunset......

笑不出的感覺

這數天，有著說不出，數不完的擔憂，有著笑不出的感覺

沒完沒了，沒完沒了

這幾天我的靈魂與肉體分離了，身邊彷彿有人在說話，但我好像到了另一個空間，雙腿變得無力，究竟再要等多久才能真正透一透氣？

How to deal with stress?

Sometimes,I do ask myself how could i deal with stress? But from time to time, when heavy work load is around me,,,,,I duno how to face it and I easily stressed out. These few days, my stomachache, headache, nightmare....all........ of a sudden come out together andI noticed that i was under great pressure......... I know no matter how hard I try to deal with stress,,,,,,,, i will fail to calm myself down while working non-stop and non-stop....... i always tell myself to use my heart to do that, try work things better ( at least better than last time),,,,,, try to do better is not for others, is for myself............ I duno why i still feel so tense when deadline is coming. I will be in hell these 2 weeks, I know, presentations, assignments, new module,,,,,,, all I need to handle at the same time.....
hey,,,,,,, am I forcing myself..........? what is my goal? what do i want to do? whY I am doing it? In this moment, what I can answer is..... if I promised to do something, I will try my best to do it well,,,,,,,,,,,, although people might not know, but I do things is for myself,, not for the others.........
good night my stressed shoulder

Found and lost

Tonight, I was looking for some old CD cover for some teaching stuff,,,,,,,,, I found I lost one CD, I just want to take it out and listen to it..... but it was lost. It was not the first time I lost my CD at my own home, it was such a depressing thing happened in life..... it was a very important CD ,,,,,,, I love it so much,, I guess I won't be able to find another one. It was given from a lost friend,,,,,,,,, the cd was purple........ and my heart is purple right now..... hey cd,, where are you ? I have been losing things day by day,, why you still leaving me? when the time I really want to find you , why you leave me alone? come back? hope it's just a short separation, and you will come back to me again.........

Books, Movies and Music

Today, finally bought Chat Lam's book "on the road again". The book isn't my favourite kind of books I love to read, but I really wanna share the feeling of traveling with the author. I guess I haven't really been to placed outside HK for a long time, I do really hope to leave HK sometime before the end of this year. Today, feel so good as I met an old friend whom I haven't see him for a long time. We share ideas, feelings, new insight about job, career, design, music, movies , books and everything around the world. I highly recommended him to watch "The Closer" and listen to the song " The Blowers Daughter"...........and he share his new design to me,.. it;s such a nice sharing section today!
Thanks my dear friend, dragon :) you are always so supportive!

Friday without soul

This is a sunny Friday, yet I could not feel the light, I could not feel the warmth. I guess I was terribily tired these weeks. I hope weekend will come as soon as possible.....

Between life and death

today, i am very sorry to hear the news of my best friend's grandpa passed away...... my brother always said I take life and death too seriously, he said " someone died, someone born, you can always see this scene in the hospital, it's a life cycle.....why take it so serious?".... but duno why from time to time I still cannot ease the sorrow in my heart when knowing people passed away. remember last year, my gradauntie died,,,,,,,,, it took so long for me to recover..... I ever lost my energy to love the one who love me a lot.......
we cannot control out birth nor our death.............we born alone ,,,,,,,, leave alone.............maybe we should really try hard to treasure the moment when people still feel happy to live around you........treasure life, treasure death, treasure what you still have.