Thanks bud! This funny little thing was given from my dear friend Carly!!! haha, it's a bud, and we were bud! DEAR, please try think things in another way round, always put your true heart to do it, then life can be happier. Trust me!
Last night, I've been to my favourite cafe in YMT(this is my favourite cafe since My Coffe was closed). I originally want to order a Christmas dinner but Mr Waiter said they don't have one..... so I ordered my favourite chicken wings for myself and Carly. This is the coolest dish in the world! Yummy :P The highlight of the night was ..... a christmas tree..... on the dish... let's share!! my dear friends. Dear bel and soon & eva, I hope to share the happiness of eating those chicken wings with you next time :)A belated Merry Christmas to you all!Let's try to treasure the little things in our life!
Why people always said Christmas need to be "White Christmas"? Why not "Purple"? I love purple so much the I was so happy last day that I saw The Ocean Terminal was full of "Purple Christmas Trees". It was so pretty that I can's stop myself for taking photos of those lovely trees! Good that HK people finally got good taste to make Christmas a more special fucntion :).. haha! My dear friends....... wishing you a purple Christmas and try coloring your Christmas into your favourite colours :)
This is a cold dark morning, I cannot pull myself up from the bed...I guess not only me,, people who need to wake up before 6am might have the same feeling as mine. When I opened my eyes, I told myself it was still the middle of the night, hey , sleep back,but I know it's not true. Back to the realiy, I still pull myself up from the warm bed and push my half dead body to the bathroom.
Recently got some presentations about visual icons. I was drown into the research on those images about Mao......got a bit crazy about his face and images about him...... yesterday bought a small book in HMV called "The Thoughts of Chairman MIAOW", it was so funny that the author tried to replace the head of Mao into MIAOW from the chinese paintings. I guess if Mao saw those images, he will jump up from his coffin :) Bought a new CD in HMV, NANA, I guess she is the coolest visual icon in current days. I guess her image looked great in NANA then her old CDs.
These few days, under great pressure and stress + sickness when working, cannot get quality sleep at night, cannot communicate well with people, I was like evaporating in the real world. My face was terrible these days,,,,, red, ichy,,,,,,, ugly ,,,,,,,,,, made me lost my confident....... hey,,,, the harsh time, please leave me alone as soon as possible.
Hate being sick,, hate the feeling of "losing concentration" on my work ...... hate getting stuck. hate losing my clear mind to think and to analysis........... please please please ,, leave me alone,, dear sick sick devil! I was leaving in hell just like dead for 2 days,, headache keep tracing me and the weather is getting cold and I was hiding in a dark corner waiting for the sunrise. How are you? Are you still living healthly and happily? I guess I got to close my eyes and enter hide myself into the cold dark night again........
Got some new challenges this week.... sometimes good to have some changes when working for routine everyday and night. Monday is coming, 7 hours later, I will get back to my routine again. These few weeks, different friends and people were asking me the same questions:" do you think you like your job? do you think you are suitable for the job? do you like your job?...." Till this moment, I still think I am suitable.......... I duno what will happen in the next second,....anyways.... another sunset......
Sometimes,I do ask myself how could i deal with stress? But from time to time, when heavy work load is around me,,,,,I duno how to face it and I easily stressed out. These few days, my stomachache, headache, nightmare....all........ of a sudden come out together andI noticed that i was under great pressure......... I know no matter how hard I try to deal with stress,,,,,,,, i will fail to calm myself down while working non-stop and non-stop....... i always tell myself to use my heart to do that, try work things better ( at least better than last time),,,,,, try to do better is not for others, is for myself............ I duno why i still feel so tense when deadline is coming. I will be in hell these 2 weeks, I know, presentations, assignments, new module,,,,,,, all I need to handle at the same time..... hey,,,,,,, am I forcing myself..........? what is my goal? what do i want to do? whY I am doing it? In this moment, what I can answer is..... if I promised to do something, I will try my best to do it well,,,,,,,,,,,, although people might not know, but I do things is for myself,, not for the others......... good night my stressed shoulder
Tonight, I was looking for some old CD cover for some teaching stuff,,,,,,,,, I found I lost one CD, I just want to take it out and listen to it..... but it was lost. It was not the first time I lost my CD at my own home, it was such a depressing thing happened in life..... it was a very important CD ,,,,,,, I love it so much,, I guess I won't be able to find another one. It was given from a lost friend,,,,,,,,, the cd was purple........ and my heart is purple right now..... hey cd,, where are you ? I have been losing things day by day,, why you still leaving me? when the time I really want to find you , why you leave me alone? come back? hope it's just a short separation, and you will come back to me again.........
Today, finally bought Chat Lam's book "on the road again". The book isn't my favourite kind of books I love to read, but I really wanna share the feeling of traveling with the author. I guess I haven't really been to placed outside HK for a long time, I do really hope to leave HK sometime before the end of this year. Today, feel so good as I met an old friend whom I haven't see him for a long time. We share ideas, feelings, new insight about job, career, design, music, movies , books and everything around the world. I highly recommended him to watch "The Closer" and listen to the song " The Blowers Daughter"...........and he share his new design to me,.. it;s such a nice sharing section today! Thanks my dear friend, dragon :) you are always so supportive!
today, i am very sorry to hear the news of my best friend's grandpa passed away...... my brother always said I take life and death too seriously, he said " someone died, someone born, you can always see this scene in the hospital, it's a life cycle.....why take it so serious?".... but duno why from time to time I still cannot ease the sorrow in my heart when knowing people passed away. remember last year, my gradauntie died,,,,,,,,, it took so long for me to recover..... I ever lost my energy to love the one who love me a lot....... we cannot control out birth nor our death.............we born alone ,,,,,,,, leave alone.............maybe we should really try hard to treasure the moment when people still feel happy to live around you........treasure life, treasure death, treasure what you still have.
I still remember the time when I still like to enjoy going to LanKwaiFong with my friends to spend my Halloween night, it was just few years ago. Today, still got some friends asking me to go hanging around in Central, but I seems lost the passion, the intension, the energy to join them. What's happened to me? Am I getting old? Is the world going to fast but I am still moving in 0.00001Km/hr? Am I still leaving in a dreamworld and escaping from the reality? Anyways, too much ?? for tonight. To my dear friends who still enjoy celebrating Halloween at LanKwaiFong, I wish you always have the passion and energy. Happy Hallloween!
My dear friend, you know what? we have been knowing one another for more than 10 years, I guess a human being won't have many 10 years, so we really need to treasure our friendship as not many people will have a true friendship that last for so long. I have been worrying about you for months, can't really get in touch with you, dunno where you are, duno why you are leaving. but so happy to see you last few days, you seems okay.....you gave a long speech to us, but I really enjoy it. After your trip to England and Pairs, you seems getting some new inspiration from Art, and that's really good! I really hope people around me will enjoy Art as I always did. You know, you seems bringing out an Art Histroy lesson starting from Rococo, decorative art... to impressionism, surrealism...... Dali..... to us, ha ha,,,,, but I was too hungry that I keep eating and listening to you. You know, you are inspiring me too, for years, I only could read the art works from books or internet, I got no chance to visit the REAL art pieces. For the next step I am going to do is..... to work hard and save money to visit museums all around the world!!!! Thanks my dear friend:) remember, no matter where you go, where you want to hide, drop me a word, give me a call before you go..........don't make me worry about you :)
Finally got an excuse to leave my working place earlier. A nice sunset is waiting foe me at the entrance of the gate. Thank God for reserving this nice sunset for me. I always believe :"an ending is a beginning", without ending, another beginning will not start. I hope I can have a nice beginning in the future....
Finally got a chance to read new blogs from my lovable ones, thanks for the people who inventing blog, so that I could share my everyday photos and idea to my friends. Jack was a bit upset these days, he tried committed suicide many times and today he was so blue, the same as his dear friend, me,,,,,,,,, hey, be strong, weekend is coming, let's be prepared!
Last night, I got several nightmaressssssss, I dreamt that I was preparing a coffin for myself, me myself was trying to put my own dead body into my own designed woodenm coffin. I covered myself with cloth and I put a posthumous papers into it and closed it. Then , I don't know where to put my own coffin, I flush it into the toliet and when the moment I was looking at the coffin disappearing from me, the alarm clock ran, and I woke up with deep breath.
Got a discussion about regret with my friend, I asked, " Can we minimize the chance of causing regret in our life? I did things hurting others, I regret. I did things hurting myself, I regret. I did things hurting both of us, I regret. We keep causing regret in our life, can we try causing less regret?" My friend said, " This is life, this is the reality of life. We keep on causing regret and that is the stage of our life, when we look back, we saw what we have done before and that will influence our next decision making in our life. So , no need to feel sorry of cauing regret in your life, that's part of your life. You cannot "try" to cause less regret, as you cannot control it." Dear friends, I hope I can move on with the regretssssssssss in my past and open another new window of my life.............
Duno why, my brothers love to make things into pairs, maybe that's true when people are in love, everything in their eyes seems so beautiful and peaceful, things will pair up, life will fill with adventures and laughter. See..... another pair in my home !!!
another day........ a warm Thursday morning..... but my eyes were so blur this morning, I guess I worked too late these few days, and I gonna steal some rest. The sunshine fell on my Jack team this morning and it was so nice that they were working with me everyday :) They made me less lonely everyday.